Welcome strangers...

Wow, finally I can update the site again! This trouble with the damn hacker really annoys me and I have a feeling it's not completely done yet. Anyway, look at my beautiful new layout featuring the beautiful Melina! Who would have ever thought that I would say that? Considering how I disliked her just 2 years ago. haha
The layout was made by the amazing Carol of Dirrty-Laundry.

So what has been up with me lately? I was in Serbia in January as most of you know. It was only a week, but I totally enjoyed seeing my family again. I even met a few who I never met before for example my mom's cousin and his wife. Hey Pityu and Juci! They are both so awesome! All in all it was a great week, despite of the reasons we went there.

Before I go on with my blog, this is directed to "Jacky". Yeah I know who you are, don't flatter yourself.

"stop being a bitch. your a coldhearted bastard, whose deserved every bit of bad thats happened lately.

have a nice life shithead."

I only got one thing to say to you: Get a life! A life that doesn't revolve around hating me. You're pathetic, but I won't bother with your stupidity anymore, from now on, all comments from you will be deleted quietly. Go die in a ditch.

So, RAW sucked pretty much last night. What the hell am I talking about? It always does! None of that WWE shit is worth watching anymore, if there wouldn't be certain people I'd like to see.
Just gives me more reasons to love TNA, although I wish they'd push Sabin and Shelley more. *le sigh* But I do like the storyline between the Angle Alliance and Samoa Joe, Kevin Nash & Christian Cage. They built that one up good.

Ok enough for now, I gotta head off, cause my girls are waiting. We have a DVD night planned, but knowing us, we'll decide otherwise in the end anyway. haha

Drea out...

Music: Big Dismal - Remember
Quote: "The light you've given me inside, it will always glow..."
Mood: empty


So yeah, my prayers have not been answered. It would have just been 4 more days...4 fucking days! Sadly my aunt didn't make it that long, she passed away this morning. I really don't know what to say anymore, cause in the last years I have lost so many people that I loved dearly and some of them went way too early.

Yet so many people still believe in something like a god. Let me tell you something, god is a bastard, if he even exists, and blame it on my loss all you want that I'm this upset, he remains a bastard. If there would be a god, he would have given my aunt a few more days and this is not out of selfishness, cause it honestly breaks my heart to see my mom like this. Would it have been such a problem if she would have gotten the opportunity to see her sister one last time alive? I just don't get it and it upsets me to no point. The sad thing is, my aunt was religious and what did she get for it? Nothing! Absolutely nothing! First her son passes away, my cousin, and then she passes away, all alone.

I'm sad, I really am. But on the other side, there's this anger inside of me that comes up every time something like this happens. Enough of this though, I ranted and now I feel a bit better.

My only comfort is that she just fell asleep peacefully and without any pain. Also now she's back together with my grandparents and my other uncle Szilvi. That's the only positive I see right now. The funeral is gonna be tomorrow already, so we won't be there for that either. All in all my life is completely screwed up right now.

I'm gonna end it here, just a few more words to my aunt. I honestly couldn't have asked for a better aunt than you, you've been amazing in everything you did and I'll miss you dearly!

R.I.P Aunt Maria 1937 - 2008
You will never be forgotten, may your wonderful soul rest in peace!
Én nagyon szeretlek!